Question:
hi Phil – If you haven’t had the urge to cut before, let me make a suggestion. Not long after I started medications I started having these urges, not only did I think of doing it to myself but also had frequent thoughts about doing it accidently. I realized that it was very stupid but could not make the thoughts go away. I called my P-doc and he said it could be from the medication maybe that they were coming from an unconscience fear. I thought this a bit ridiculous since I use many power saws for things I paint on wood. A few days later I forgot all about it and it hasn’t been a problem for several months. You say you OD’d but didn’t say what on or what your meds are, or if they changed them recently. Hang tight, the feeling might go away like mine did.
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I don’t want to impose on anyone but I’m feeling desparetly low, I OD’d last week and don’t think I want to go through that again, but now I think I’m going to cut, just for the release and sensation. I’m BP rapid and have hit a hell of a low and can’t seem to get myself out of it, I suppose I should be happy that I still have enough about me to call out, but I don’t necessarily know what I’m shouting for. Any suggestions. Phil
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>I don’t want to impose on anyone but I’m feeling desparetly low, I OD’d >last week and don’t think I want to go through that again, but now I think >I’m going to cut, just for the release and sensation. I’m BP rapid and have >hit a hell of a low and can’t seem to get myself out of it, I suppose I >should be happy that I still have enough about me to call out, but I don’t >necessarily know what I’m shouting for. >Any suggestions. >Phil
Phil I’m sorry you’re feeling so low. I cut AND OD’d about two weeks ago and spent 11 days in the hospital. Please try not to cut, if you haven’t started it yet, don’t start, it’s wicked. I’m glad you reached out for help. Is there anyone you can reach out to in person? I know it’s hard, especially since not many people can understand or deal with the cutting. But you’re worth the effort. Please try to hang on and try to do something else. Good luck and hang in there, please. Take care Moody
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>I don’t want to impose on anyone but I’m feeling desparetly low, I OD’d >last week and don’t think I want to go through that again, but now I think >I’m going to cut, just for the release and sensation. I’m BP rapid and have >hit a hell of a low and can’t seem to get myself out of it, I suppose I >should be happy that I still have enough about me to call out, but I don’t >necessarily know what I’m shouting for. >Any suggestions. >Phil
Hey, Phil, >I am sorry you feeel so bad. I can definitely say I know the feeling. . .please don’t cut! >I did it for about 4 years and I finally stopped. It has been three years this Oct.
I know it "feels good" to cut and it seems like the only choice, but don’t. . .If you want to, you can E mail me and talk about it. I care! Brenda S. Caldwell (yes, it is a real adddress!) "So be it/settle the score/to secure peace is/ to prepare for war/" -J. Hetfield, Metallica