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>I used to spend hours putting on some of my most moving records and they >often would "move" me through the deepest parts of the depression by >allowing my tears and my emmotions to flow.
J- I did the same thing, particularly as a teenager. In the past year, I have also done this, but was not fully aware of this. I have found releasing my emotions helps me to feel better. Cathy
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I do the annoying conversation review thing in my head too! This is the first time that I have ever heard anyone else mention it. It’s like my brain tapes the entire conversation for play back later, And, if I dissapprove of some part of my interaction, the inner voices of self deprication begin berrating. Ever since I was old enough to choose my own movies I have known that I cannot go to scarey or violent shows. I can’t see it thru to the end even when I KNOW that there is a Hollywood ending. I used to spend hours putting on some of my most moving records and they often would "move" me through the deepest parts of the depression by allowing my tears and my emmotions to flow. I would move away from the edge of the suicide pit.
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I am also *very* sensitive to anything that provides me with too much stimulus. Loud noises, loud music, sad movies, and especially any type of music that I associate with particular traumatic events or periods of my life. Certain songs can just entirely destroy my mood, or alternatively (but not as frequently) elevate it. Also had/have an annoying habit of analyzing all of my interactions with other people to make sure everything I said was appropriate and to decide whether or not the other person was making fun of me. After several years of cognitive therapy, and my current chemical cocktail of Lithium, Paxil, and Thorazine, I have most of these problems under control to some degree…but still have a very "sensitive" nervous system. Things like these used to make me cry for hours and just want to die. But I am OK now. Kirsten – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text ->Does anyone with BP have a sensitivity to conflict,like crossfire or >movies with too much pain ?Nightmares?Im trying to figure out what is me >or BP >Me too. Especially loud noises, even heavy metal music can agitate me and >is distrubing. Violence is particularly horrible, and guarantees >nightmares. >I also feel like I want to run and run and run when I am >hypomanic!
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>Does anyone with BP have a sensitivity to conflict,like crossfire or >movies with too much pain ?Nightmares?Im trying to figure out what is me >or BP
Me too. Especially loud noises, even heavy metal music can agitate me and is distrubing. Violence is particularly horrible, and guarantees nightmares. I also feel like I want to run and run and run when I am hypomanic!
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> Does anyone with BP have a sensitivity to conflict,like crossfire or > movies with too much pain ?Nightmares?Im trying to figure out what is me > or BP.I get agitated,obsessional and panicky when hyper and it isnt > fun.But this too will pass.Thanks for being here.
It’s the same with me but in reverse; my OC-phobic-anxious-stressful-hostile stage is while depressed, my uplifted stage is while manic.